State of Denial

Zaka

In a secluded corner,

Of a dark room 

I am tucked away

To seek a ray of light

Ironic as it may sound

But

When things get unbearable

When truth is too much to handle

Self-delusion comes to the rescue

Lies and feign promises

Sometimes can console

Running away from reality

Running away from those who could help

Isolation is an answer

I refuse to cry anymore

As if nothing has gone wrong

I have long been living,

In this strange universe

Where denial and desire coexist

Digging a shallow grave to lay myself in

Sinking with agony held within

On a long road to nothingness,

I live to tell a tale